Adelle - Our Angel Baby

Technology has proven itself to me today to be quite positive by bringing me closer to women around the World who are moms to Angel Babies.  I joined the Facebook group "Little Angel Wings".  Following the path that was set before me, I gave a little blurb about who I am and how I came to be there.

I have always been a little upset that I could not remember how much Adelle weighed... was it 3.5 or 3.6 lbs?  I used to think that I was an awful mom for not remembering that. 

I was induced at 9:50 a.m. on the morning of November 6th, 2009 and gave birth to Adelle at 3:53 p.m.  Eventhough I knew she had already passed away, I remember as I pushed, thinking that it was such a miracle.  I could feel the head, the feet. I was wishing so hard then that it was mistake, that the baby was still alive...

M and I had thought that morning that we would not want to see or hold the baby for fear it would be too difficult.  But thanks to advice from Roxanne (see previous post), the urge was so strong to do just the opposite.  She brought her to us in a warm white blanket.  I had her in my arms for what seemed like five minutes but must have been closer to thirty.  In those short minutes, I had to remember her tiny nose, her beautiful lips, her dark curly hair, the feel of her weight in my arms.  Most parents have an entire lifetime to remember the characteristics of their babies.  I only had a short time...  So, I have forgiven myself for not remembering the .1 lbs difference. 

I will never know the colour of her eyes or the sound of her laughter...  But I see her beauty in the blooming flowers, her light in the sun, the sound of her voice in birds' songs and feel her love through your prayers, friendship and care.  She was beautiful on Earth but she is more beautiful now with her little angel wings, of that I am sure.

The Angel took the book of life
And wrote down Adelle's name
Then whispered...
"Too beautiful for Earth"

Let this be said of all Angel Babies.