Friday, December 18, 2009
Physical Evidence
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Yesterday I stopped bleeding and my breasts have stopped lactating... plus, I fit in some of my old (non-maternity) clothes. Most women would be ecstatic about this. Not me. For me, these were the only signs - the physical evidence - of my very real pregnancy, labour and delivery.
Last week I wept for the day the bleeding would stop, because it would mean that the only "evidence" would be memories... and memories, I felt, would dull or disappear with time. Yesterday, however, I didn't cry. A dear friend visited me and told me the story of her grand-mother. It seems that this woman even in her advanced age, when asked about how many children she had would say she had 14 and always mentioned that she had lost her first boy at birth. It gave me great comfort to hear that even after 50 or more years, this woman never forgot.
Today I feel confident that I won't ever forget Adelle. The love I feel for her is another kind of proof, not physical, but still very real. And for Christmas, my husband is getting a ring made for me with the November birthstone in memory of our little Angel. I would rather be holding her in my arms, but this stone, ironically the colour of the sun, will be a nice "physical" way to commemorate her.
What the heart has once known, it shall never forget. ~Author unknown
Last week I wept for the day the bleeding would stop, because it would mean that the only "evidence" would be memories... and memories, I felt, would dull or disappear with time. Yesterday, however, I didn't cry. A dear friend visited me and told me the story of her grand-mother. It seems that this woman even in her advanced age, when asked about how many children she had would say she had 14 and always mentioned that she had lost her first boy at birth. It gave me great comfort to hear that even after 50 or more years, this woman never forgot.
Today I feel confident that I won't ever forget Adelle. The love I feel for her is another kind of proof, not physical, but still very real. And for Christmas, my husband is getting a ring made for me with the November birthstone in memory of our little Angel. I would rather be holding her in my arms, but this stone, ironically the colour of the sun, will be a nice "physical" way to commemorate her.
What the heart has once known, it shall never forget. ~Author unknown
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- Mireille
- On November 6th, 2009, I gave birth to our angel Adelle at 34 weeks. She had already grown her wings... I am going through a difficult time and am learning a lot about myself and what it means to be the mommy of an Angel. I hope that by sharing my experiences, other angels' moms will find some comfort in knowing they are not alone. I am married to the most wonderful man on Earth. I am blessed with the most precious family and friends. My heart will always be full of love for my Angel Baby Adelle.
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I think the ring is a beautiful idea. I was going to get one made too but couldn't come up with something I liked, so instead I'm trying to find the perfect tattoo, a dragonfly to represent life is what I want but the more I google them, the more designs I see. I need it to be blue and purple - blue for saphire for when I lost her and purple for amaethyst for when she should have been born.
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