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November 6th, 2009
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Mireille |
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Technology has proven itself to me today to be quite positive by bringing me closer to women around the World who are moms to Angel Babies. I joined the Facebook group "Little Angel Wings". Following the path that was set before me, I gave a little blurb about who I am and how I came to be there.
I have always been a little upset that I could not remember how much Adelle weighed... was it 3.5 or 3.6 lbs? I used to think that I was an awful mom for not remembering that.
I was induced at 9:50 a.m. on the morning of November 6th, 2009 and gave birth to Adelle at 3:53 p.m. Eventhough I knew she had already passed away, I remember as I pushed, thinking that it was such a miracle. I could feel the head, the feet. I was wishing so hard then that it was mistake, that the baby was still alive...
M and I had thought that morning that we would not want to see or hold the baby for fear it would be too difficult. But thanks to advice from Roxanne (see previous post), the urge was so strong to do just the opposite. She brought her to us in a warm white blanket. I had her in my arms for what seemed like five minutes but must have been closer to thirty. In those short minutes, I had to remember her tiny nose, her beautiful lips, her dark curly hair, the feel of her weight in my arms. Most parents have an entire lifetime to remember the characteristics of their babies. I only had a short time... So, I have forgiven myself for not remembering the .1 lbs difference.
I will never know the colour of her eyes or the sound of her laughter... But I see her beauty in the blooming flowers, her light in the sun, the sound of her voice in birds' songs and feel her love through your prayers, friendship and care. She was beautiful on Earth but she is more beautiful now with her little angel wings, of that I am sure.
The Angel took the book of life
And wrote down Adelle's name
Then whispered...
"Too beautiful for Earth"
Let this be said of all Angel Babies.
I have always been a little upset that I could not remember how much Adelle weighed... was it 3.5 or 3.6 lbs? I used to think that I was an awful mom for not remembering that.
I was induced at 9:50 a.m. on the morning of November 6th, 2009 and gave birth to Adelle at 3:53 p.m. Eventhough I knew she had already passed away, I remember as I pushed, thinking that it was such a miracle. I could feel the head, the feet. I was wishing so hard then that it was mistake, that the baby was still alive...
M and I had thought that morning that we would not want to see or hold the baby for fear it would be too difficult. But thanks to advice from Roxanne (see previous post), the urge was so strong to do just the opposite. She brought her to us in a warm white blanket. I had her in my arms for what seemed like five minutes but must have been closer to thirty. In those short minutes, I had to remember her tiny nose, her beautiful lips, her dark curly hair, the feel of her weight in my arms. Most parents have an entire lifetime to remember the characteristics of their babies. I only had a short time... So, I have forgiven myself for not remembering the .1 lbs difference.
I will never know the colour of her eyes or the sound of her laughter... But I see her beauty in the blooming flowers, her light in the sun, the sound of her voice in birds' songs and feel her love through your prayers, friendship and care. She was beautiful on Earth but she is more beautiful now with her little angel wings, of that I am sure.
The Angel took the book of life
And wrote down Adelle's name
Then whispered...
"Too beautiful for Earth"
Let this be said of all Angel Babies.
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About Me
- Mireille
- On November 6th, 2009, I gave birth to our angel Adelle at 34 weeks. She had already grown her wings... I am going through a difficult time and am learning a lot about myself and what it means to be the mommy of an Angel. I hope that by sharing my experiences, other angels' moms will find some comfort in knowing they are not alone. I am married to the most wonderful man on Earth. I am blessed with the most precious family and friends. My heart will always be full of love for my Angel Baby Adelle.
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3 comments:
I keep seeing the date November 6 and all I can think of....is
last year on that date I got married in Vegas and it was the happiest day of my life ;-)
I feel sad ;-(because it's going to be the saddest day of your life from now on...My birthday is on that day also.
My birthdays and anniversaries (I think Brian planned it that way) will be different from now on. I will be thinking of you and your family and on that day and thinking of your sweet Angel Adelle...
I had no idea this is how you lost her. I have no words :-( but....
You do know...
you are in that special group that gave birth to an angel.
Love Helene :>)
I lost mine on November 4th and even all these years later that date and my due date are special to me.
In the beginning all i did was mourn on those days...now i make sure that i do something special so that I can feel like i'm celebrating a birthday.
WOW I see you as such a strong women, I believe it takes a lot of courage to write about your experience the way you are. I truly find you an inspiration to read as you grow from this experience.
You keep on moving mountains to path the way to your heavenly daughter Adelle.(my opinion only) I wish you and M. all the best as you both get thru this ordeal. One step at a time, at your own pace!!
Continue healing,as you know SHE is watching and helping the best she can.TC
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